Day 87, 88 and 89 in Swaziland
I came to this ‘holiday house’ again this weekend, starting from Friday and probably will stay here until Tuesday. It’s lees scary now cause I’m more used to what’s around me and the whole environment now. It’s strange this place I don’t get to hear the sound of the birds as much as where i normally live. Put it this sound…it’s so quiet…but not naturally quiet cause I don’t hear the sound of the nature at all. Probably when you developed this whole area for human to live..somehow you destroy the whole nature already not matter how many flowers, trees, or grass you have at your backyard. It’s never the same after all. Sadly.. ! During this holiday, I finally went to a tourist shop and bought some gifts that’s ready for me to take it back to Australia. It was on Saturday, I went Michelle to a Taiwanese grandparent’s house for lunch. There were a lot of taiwanese there, most of them all work under the taiwan government..which means they get pay heaps but doing fuck off. lol. There was a red one on the table, I quickly finish my meal and asked the owner of the house that can i open that bottle. hahah So I had about three people sharing this bottle with me. Im mainly the one pushing people to drink it and doing all the social …omg what’s wrong with these people seriously… hate being the social one.. really tiring. If it’s both way that we are all trying to make this event more interesting and get to know each other, then ok I’m cool with that. But no..those people aren’t even try…they just stay silence if I stop asking questions. Damn..that’s why i never really like taiwanese or asian. Anyways, after the lunch, we drove to a pretty famous tourist shop for me do some shopping. We arrived about 3pm, it took me a hour for just one shop. LOL. I was ready to go to the next shop…but Oops..they closed at 4pm..damn it. The weather was bloody bloody cold. It’s like 10C or even under. I didn’t have anything extra warm to wear, not even my jacket. So I had to quickly jump back into the car and have the heater on. Hopefully I won’t catch a cold. After that, we went back to the mall and to the taiwanese shop where i bought the laptop for Michelle. We went there to ask if we can borrow their internet and pay them by usage or time. But the guy was really friendly and just help us connect his internet (but he wouldn’t give us the passwords.) lol. Anyways, I ended up staying there the whole night to do my work for King Style and we had Chinese there as well for dinner. Im more and more used to this holiday house now since I can have access to the internet. It’s so fast, i got to download three Ted talks within 30 minutes. I was also able to download a movie for about one and half hour. I have been here for 3 months, never experience such joy of the internet speed before. lol. Anyways, Im looking forward to Monday night hopefully my neighbour will ring me for dinner together. Then Thursday got a very important meeting with South Africa Guests. Saturday will need to catch up with one of the family from Taiwan for a kinda like ‘farewell’ dinner with them. Then that will be the end of the first week of May. Omg, i have this feeling that May is gonna go very fast which is really exciting ~ Sydney ~ Im coming back in 30 days. Woohoooo. But it comes to the scary part as well..gotta start looking and thinking about where I’m gonna go find another job. Fingers cross.
Last night, I watched a really really interesting documentary called, “HUMAN”. At first I was really expecting to fall asleep and not really paying much attention to it. But It didn’t turn out that way at all. It was one of the best and most beautiful cinematic documentary that I have ever seen in my life. The collaboration of nature, human, actives with the angle wide above shooting down and slow motion so we can see every little detail what’s happening, and the scene of we (the viewer) see the interview talking directly into the camera. We don’t see question that’s been ask, we don’t know their name at all. It’s a mystery puzzle that we need to keep putting it all together all the way through the documentary. I was prepared to cry but I just can’t in many scenes. In a way it’s so brutal, it’s so realistic but at the same time it’s human nature with complex emotions that we make big mistakes that ruined other people’s life. Im here in Africa, I see the big different of rich and poor. Same as how the documentary is showing. It one part of this film, It says there are people don’t have water to drink and having water crisis, but those workers are building massive tower for the super rich that each single apartment have their own swimming pool. It made me feel …omg that’s exactly the same as where I’m at right now. This holiday house area, pretty much every white person has a swimming pool in their house. But going back to where I used to live, people there have no water…living in a very bad condition…so often they get sick because of the living condition. It’s a very hard thing to do, to fix, or to choose side. To live in a middle class house, it’s so comfortable, nice and pretty. But to do that, I put myself into this consumer society that I have to keep purchase to maintenance the place, to earn more money so i can spend…! Then there is the poorer / lower middle class living in a simple ordinary house, money will never run out because there is pretty much nothing else to buy or needed. What shall we choose to be, and where shall we belong…to make this world truely a better place ? To make everyone equal ? Take out the swimming pool, the amount of money that we can save…can feed at least 10 households here in Africa. But no….no one will sacrifice that…because we all used this type of thinking “I work hard, this money belongs to me, I deserve to spend it the way i want it and live in a middle class condition as i wanted”. If people are starving and dreaming for water just next door,,,will they help out..or do they think those people just deserve to die because they don’t work harder..?! They don’t have the chance, the opportunity, or the equality…how can they possible work harder ! After being here for 3 months, I see a little bit of the different aspect of racism. It’s not the same as how the Australia Media is always fighting and shouting about. This racism here in Africa…is much deeper …is much more dangerous… in a way is acceptable for everyone and no one wants to change it. It’s like in the movie, the white will never take away the power of being on top of the middle class and let the black work for them and dreaming one day they can reach to the top as well. If we removed racism and put equality into this system…im sure the white will be the one fighting against it or be the first one running away to somewhere else that they can continuous with their ‘racism system to control the society’. It’s very scary and complicated issue here. What can i do …. at the end of day… probably nothing i can do about it. Do i fight for the black ? or Do i be friend with the whites so i can have a better and more comfortable life here ? Human Nature is very very dark. If only i can be less selfish and given up myself to just even change 5 people’s life to let them have the same chance and equality as what we all have. If we can all do that ,the world will be in so much better place.